Dreams - Are You Afraid of Your Dreams? Don't Be, Please Read

I used to love my dreams.  I used to sleep straight through the night, and not wanna get out of bed, my dreams were so good and I had so many of them, ever since I was 3 or 4 I think.

Then I became a parent!! And also a little breakdown a year or two before didn't help either.

I started blocking out dreams - asking my spirit guides to stop sending them too me, they were too taunting - intimate moments, memories of deep love, none of which were with the person they were supposed to be with aka dream cheating.  Major, major, and very nice dream cheating.

So they stopped. The spirit guides listened to part of it (they didn't send me any dreams of Matt like I asked). But nothing nice came in its place.  My dreams became boring, dull, and confusing dark and muddled, with little colour or form in them.

Missing pleasant dreams and dream interpretation, I asked for them back and they came back.  I am less afraid of them now.  They really seem to be true, if I think carefully and listen to my heart. 

At first I might think, 'But I can't possibly have these feelings for this person'.  But actually I do still have them somewhere inside of me.  Or in a weird way, I need to have them.  The level of denial and lying to myself, pushing feelings far down that I am capable of these days is quite astounding actually.

But I have decided it's going to stop.

I'm going to try and work with love and desire and see where they take me (whilst endeavouring to be sensitive and not hurt anyone).  I'm hoping that being true to my feelings will actually hurt people less than not expressing my love, my passion, my concern for others and true, honest ideas to help them.

Often I have a really good idea but because it's spiritual or higher level I worry people will think I'm weird if I start talking spiritual.  But I often see their lives decay or not get any better before me, knowing that the advice I could give them could change their lives, but I feel I'm not allowed to give professional advice yet because I'm not fully trained etc. it might damage someone...I wish I could let go of this because I'm so sick of seeing people I love suffer and being afraid to say what I really see in their aura (yes I see aura type things or tiny images and words around them).